A Closed Book, With the Illusion of Being Open

A familiar memory I pass,
A fragrance drifts by, a song I hear.
A transient feeling, nothing does last.
For I have come to realize,
The present engulfs the past.

I observe the path that I tread,
Anticipating the destination,,
I veer myself off track,
Recalling every word I’ve said,
For fear pulls me back.

The end will be the same,
Have I not learnt my lesson?
But the hope always lingers,
That this time, it may be different.

It almost sounds comical
That I see the outside perfect on paper,
For I know nothing about anything now,
But will I truly know everything ever?

Yes, there is a connection,
But what does it matter?
Is that really sufficient?
When I know the outcome,
Or convinced myself I do.
Maybe it just seems so.

I do not deny anything,
As I have done before.
I am trying to accept,
As I will from now on.
I know what I want,
Yet, I’m scared to even try.

Now, I chase my dreams,
Set on another dimension,
Another plane, another view,
Yet this thought still exists,
Will it be the same?
Or will it not?

3 thoughts:

Anonymous said...

Is it better to say, "I've tried and tried, and I've failed... so I'm scared to try again" or is it better to say, "I've tried and tried... I've failed, yet I will try again until I succeed"...?

in4sight said...

Love the title!!! lol

Aren't you supposed to learn from failure? Now you have a better idea of what you want, and when you get it, you'll be able to appreciate it that much more...

Vani said...

Its almost as if...as your writing this piece your thinking is evolving...interesting!

 

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To escape from the humdrum existence people call "life", I explore the jungle of my mind. A meandering path, with thoughts as my obstacles. I put aside the smiling face of my mother, snapshots of holidays with friends, lost memories of my childhood... All in an attempt to find answers to my branching questions.

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